so this is here to document different things i have noticed with myself

that acting out things in my head helps a lot. for example, about 2 years ago i got opsessed with vampires and started acting out scenierios in bed where im a vampire, then i realized im a transbian, then i connected those two because i was always a female vampire, then i connected them cuz it was always a sappic couple. and on and on untill i just realized mid math class that i blow off the steam of having to be in a body im not comfy in by doing that. cuz spending an hour on that each nigh seems to drastically impove me the next day